Jesus died for us so that we could be free, right? Simple. Should be simple enough. For me, these past few weeks have been some of the most trying ones filled with doubt, temptation, bitterness and self-loathing. I know that Jesus has a perfect plan for me and that even in the struggles I must have faith because He’s already DONE everything for us on the cross. When He said “It is finished”, He meant it. He didn’t mean it’s partially done or you have to work your butt off every moment of every day (which was basically my mentality for as long as I can remember), but He wants us to rest in the freedom that He’s given us.
Is Jesus enough for me though? That’s something I question on most days. When I’m not busy doing something, I sit there and the fact that I’m not doing something productive consumes me. But now it’s a battle between me and my laziness, another extreme. I no longer feel that a lot of things I used to enjoy are worth doing because I’m not gonna lie, it’s been a bitter uphill battle. Yes this mountain is worth climbing, but yes it’s also painful.
There is a hope inside of me though that the freedom will be sweet. I can taste it. Everywhere I look, man is in chains. The world’s constantly shifting. Turn your eyes toward Jesus because He’s the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. I know that it’s such a privilege He’s given me to have the ability to choose what I want to do with my life. Yeah I’m a self-proclaimed “free spirit”… I need Him to control that part of my human nature though. There’s nothing wrong with having freedom, but He says “All things are lawful, but not all things are profitable.” Therefore, let us keep our eyes fixated on Him in this day.